Thursday, May 9, 2013

Loving What I Do

A lot of you probably already know that I am submissive in my sexuality. I'm mostly a service submissive: what I most enjoy is to be pleasing, to please my partner as much as I can.  I'm not much for pain, but I do love playing the slutty fucktoy to be used. My nymph just comes out and wants more.

But being a fucktoy isn't about seeking a hard fuck all the time. But about being open and available at all times, to his fingers, his lips, his hard phallus. About communicating when his touch turns me on, or when it's too much, but still taking it on as it pleases him. 

I prefer a man who plays nicely with his toys. Who does not have to express his dominance by force. A knowing that he is in control, a sureness in his voice, a willingness to take her hair and bend her over the table. His grip, his groping fingers against her clit makes his toy wet and wanting.  She was ready the moment he took her, but taking his time pleases him. He enjoys the soft moans pleading for more.

I suppose that's why I'm not a big fan of woman on top: I prefer to be pinned down underneath, bent over and held by the hips. Although the right man can dominate even when I'm straddling him, gripping my hips as he chooses the rhythm.

And when he cums...and I feel that pulsing inside...that's just as pleasing to me as my own orgasm. That's what it means for me as a submissive. I enjoy your pleasure as much as my own, a sexual empathy.

Monday, May 6, 2013

Springtime in the East Bay

I think it took a full two weeks to recover from the week I spent in New Mexico. It helped that my other job got busy just as I returned. I love my family...but I don't like the drama that comes with it. And maybe it sounds cold, but they distract me from from my goals.

Now I'm pushing forward again, back in this little dance. I have quite a few class-related events going on  in the east bay, so it makes sense to spend time there.  Even without me updating my ad, I had a few regulars seek me. 

I'm also loving my new rate. I am getting better clients, not as many hassling for quickies. They are more interested in my personality and the connection I offer. 

Working on a couple of erotica pieces...one goes back to the workplace (one of my favorite taboos) and another about my more submissive desires.